Sorry for the long delay... the reason for it hasn't even been a problem with food... well, maybe the first week... but this past week has been good. Lately, I have eaten within calories except with my overeating Thursday night and Friday night. And even then Friday was a planned 'over-eat' day. I will be having one of these (note: ONE for next week) each week just to let the cravings out... I survived through this last one somehow so I'll make it a regularly scheduled part of eating.
My thoughts on food have started to click lately and I am not sure quite what changed. On my Friday night binge I allowed myself to have anything I wanted, but after I had eaten the good stuff in my house (some McCain cake and the last of a bag of Miss Vickie's chips), there really wasn't anything I wanted. I thought about it all... hamburgers, fries, more chips, chocolate, but nothing really sparked a real craving in me. So I didn't eat anything else. I did get an ice-slushie thing which I was craving, but I consider it a victory when I allow myself to eat anything... and come out with a drink. I could have done much worse damage on Friday than what actually occurred. Still over-calories, but it's the small things right now that matter.
On Saturday I went to the movies with my sister and had planned out the day beforehand which involved a small bag of buttered popcorn (about 7 cups apparently) and then my breakfast (damn the highly caloric popcorn!). But by the time I was at the movies and had the popcorn in my hands, I didn't really want much of it. I had a little bit here and there, but I managed not to sit there with it in my lap mindlessly munching. I estimated that I ate half of the small bag, but I truly think it was less than that. My sister also got Twizzlers and despite them sitting in my lap the entire movie, I only ate three of them. Another victory! When I got out of the movie theatre, my sister asked if I wanted to go back to her place and make supper, but I really wasn't hungry and I knew that it would mean further temptation for me (we always make something good). Instead, I walked the half an hour from her place (where the theatre is) to home. I could have taken a 2 minute subway ride, but it was a nice day and I figured I would help out my body a little and walk the 2.4km.
The one thing that hasn't been going well is exercise. And that's only because I haven't found the energy to get to the gym the past week and a half. At the very least I have been walking to and from work everyday (1.2km each way), but I know it's not quite enough. So that is my goal this week is to make an effort to make it to the gym after work a couple of times.
My clinical work has been going really well. I haven't screwed up anything big yet (knock on wood). I am still learning and trying not to forget the little things while doing a bone scan, but the people I work with are generally nice and I have received two encouraging reviews already. The problem: waking up early. Jeez, it's hard going from the life of an exam-writing student to working girl (haha... not that kind of working girl). I find myself having 'naps' lasting hours once I get home from work. I just don't have the energy to do anything in the evenings anymore because I can't stand to be up late and then also have to wake up early. This is especially important because I need my energy for the day at work. We are almost always on our feet - I am thinking about taking a pedometer in with me someday to get a reading on that. The clinic isn't that large but I am constantly walking to and fro, so I think it would be an interesting number. Anyways, it's been this exhaustion that has deterred me from writing here. I don't do much during my days (or nights), so there wasn't much to write about.
In regards to the social/dating aspect - the men in my life are of ridiculously low calibre and I think I have resigned myself to merely living amongst them for a while without the intention of finding one to date. Frankly, the ones who like me are conceited dunces (note that I refrained from using a whole lot of cuss words here). Not quite sure what signals I'm sending, but apparently they are not the right ones.
In conclusion... my highest weight this past week was 215.8lbs (Monday), my lowest weight this week was 212.6lbs (Thursday) and my weight today is 213.2lbs. So down 2.6lbs for the week... not too shabby there Briana...
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Swing Swing
So tonight was my first softball game of the season and it went really well. Oh.. we didn't win, but we had fun and tried pretty hard. I managed not to get struck out, but didn't even make it to first base once. So that is my goal for the season is to hit a ball hard enough for me to make to first base. I spent most of the game catching which is fine. It's an easy job of just bending down to pick up the ball when it comes around and throwing it back to the pitcher, but I know I am going to feel it pretty bad in the gluteus maximus region tomorrow. And I even went to the gym this morning too where I focussed the weights on the lower half, so I might potentially be a hobbling old woman tomorrow.
Yesterday was an alright day. I did well with food up until the evening where I felt super munchy and gave in a little. I also had a friend's birthday party to go to which was at a karaoke bar and I'll just say there was cake involved... and had I been offered a second piece I don't think I could have said no. But the karaoke was a great time! I love singing and doing it in front of just your friends in a private room is much less daunting than in packed pubs, so we sang quite a bit.
Today, on the other hand, was a pretty great day. With two exercise trips (gym and softball) and pretty darn good eating (under 15oo calories) and still got all my water in. So I am happy. I just have to stop myself from eating anything from now until bedtime - which really should be in like 10 minutes.
As for tomorrow I have a very busy day. Up by about 5ish, start walking to clinical at about 7-7:15ish (I like lots of time to myself in the morning) and get there in lots of time for 8am. Impress my coworkers for 8 hours, during which I will eat my PRE-PACKAGED and WELL-BALANCED lunch. And then on the way home I will stop by the gym and get a workout in there. Go home... make something delicious for dinner and go to bed early. That is the goal. It might be a little difficult to get all my water in, but I'll try. And I don't really see food being an issue until late in the evening, so hopefully an early night might deter that.
So wish me luck in my future professional field. Let's hope this is the one for me!
Yesterday was an alright day. I did well with food up until the evening where I felt super munchy and gave in a little. I also had a friend's birthday party to go to which was at a karaoke bar and I'll just say there was cake involved... and had I been offered a second piece I don't think I could have said no. But the karaoke was a great time! I love singing and doing it in front of just your friends in a private room is much less daunting than in packed pubs, so we sang quite a bit.
Today, on the other hand, was a pretty great day. With two exercise trips (gym and softball) and pretty darn good eating (under 15oo calories) and still got all my water in. So I am happy. I just have to stop myself from eating anything from now until bedtime - which really should be in like 10 minutes.
As for tomorrow I have a very busy day. Up by about 5ish, start walking to clinical at about 7-7:15ish (I like lots of time to myself in the morning) and get there in lots of time for 8am. Impress my coworkers for 8 hours, during which I will eat my PRE-PACKAGED and WELL-BALANCED lunch. And then on the way home I will stop by the gym and get a workout in there. Go home... make something delicious for dinner and go to bed early. That is the goal. It might be a little difficult to get all my water in, but I'll try. And I don't really see food being an issue until late in the evening, so hopefully an early night might deter that.
So wish me luck in my future professional field. Let's hope this is the one for me!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Again
The tyranny is over!
Yay! School is finally out and I can actually relax a tiny bit before clinical starts on Monday. It has felt like one of the longest semesters of my life, so going into my last exam my only goal was to finish as quickly as possible. That night was a celebratory drink-fest with a couple of friends - cheers to being done first year (again)!
My ex-roomie came down and we had a good day of shopping, eating and pub trivia and then I drove her home on Wednesday. I bought a ton of things including some great shirts for my 'business casual' wardrobe for work and new running shoes for the gym (the old ones are now covered in baseball diamond dust).
Thursday I decided I would finally phone Maytag (again) to see what the deal was on my service call last week on my washing machine. They said the technician still didn't have the part (that he told me he would get early this week) and that he would have to call me next week sometime. Well... that just wasn't acceptable. I have clinical for two months and there is no way I can just take some time off from that for a broken washing machine - especially when the main problem is merely a burnt out $4.5o fuse! So I said screw it (oh.. and they don't work weekends...) cancelled the whole service call (shows them) and bought my own fuse and by the end of the day had a working washing machine. God, that is satisfying, but also a little frustrating as I suspected it was a fuse problem in January, but my dad wanted to wait and look at it himself which took forever and then the technician didn't make any effort to get the service call over with. Stupid fuckers... makes me want to learn a trade so these people can't try to rip me off again.
So anyway, I've been laundering up a storm ever since... I really love having a washing machine in-house!
Food has been iffy lately. I made a couple of 'better' choices, but by no means was I eating healthy the last week. But even yesterday I went out for lunch with my dad to the Keg and chose a stir fry instead of a steak or a burger... and I only ate half of it and I didn't even want dessert. So something small is changing in the mindset that at least has partly stopped me from thinking that I deserve having the overly fatty stuff because I'm stressed. I am hoping this is a permanent change.
Besides playing softball here and there (which does make my body hurt!) and going to the batting cages (last night), exercise has also been thrown to the wayside. I think I have to make myself a schedule to stick to for the whole time I am at clinical, where I walk straight from my place of work (yes! walking distance of 1.3km) to the gym which is on the way. I have to be at work for 8am, so morning workouts are really out of the question unless schedules change. But with walking to and from work, and then softball games on Sundays, and the gym (ideally) 3-5x a week - I think I'll be golden by the end of the summer.
I have gained some of this weight back and ... well... here's to a new start (again). Let's get the ball rolling (again). And let's lose some weight (ahem.. again).
Yay! School is finally out and I can actually relax a tiny bit before clinical starts on Monday. It has felt like one of the longest semesters of my life, so going into my last exam my only goal was to finish as quickly as possible. That night was a celebratory drink-fest with a couple of friends - cheers to being done first year (again)!
My ex-roomie came down and we had a good day of shopping, eating and pub trivia and then I drove her home on Wednesday. I bought a ton of things including some great shirts for my 'business casual' wardrobe for work and new running shoes for the gym (the old ones are now covered in baseball diamond dust).
Thursday I decided I would finally phone Maytag (again) to see what the deal was on my service call last week on my washing machine. They said the technician still didn't have the part (that he told me he would get early this week) and that he would have to call me next week sometime. Well... that just wasn't acceptable. I have clinical for two months and there is no way I can just take some time off from that for a broken washing machine - especially when the main problem is merely a burnt out $4.5o fuse! So I said screw it (oh.. and they don't work weekends...) cancelled the whole service call (shows them) and bought my own fuse and by the end of the day had a working washing machine. God, that is satisfying, but also a little frustrating as I suspected it was a fuse problem in January, but my dad wanted to wait and look at it himself which took forever and then the technician didn't make any effort to get the service call over with. Stupid fuckers... makes me want to learn a trade so these people can't try to rip me off again.
So anyway, I've been laundering up a storm ever since... I really love having a washing machine in-house!
Food has been iffy lately. I made a couple of 'better' choices, but by no means was I eating healthy the last week. But even yesterday I went out for lunch with my dad to the Keg and chose a stir fry instead of a steak or a burger... and I only ate half of it and I didn't even want dessert. So something small is changing in the mindset that at least has partly stopped me from thinking that I deserve having the overly fatty stuff because I'm stressed. I am hoping this is a permanent change.
Besides playing softball here and there (which does make my body hurt!) and going to the batting cages (last night), exercise has also been thrown to the wayside. I think I have to make myself a schedule to stick to for the whole time I am at clinical, where I walk straight from my place of work (yes! walking distance of 1.3km) to the gym which is on the way. I have to be at work for 8am, so morning workouts are really out of the question unless schedules change. But with walking to and from work, and then softball games on Sundays, and the gym (ideally) 3-5x a week - I think I'll be golden by the end of the summer.
I have gained some of this weight back and ... well... here's to a new start (again). Let's get the ball rolling (again). And let's lose some weight (ahem.. again).
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