Update: no weighing this weekend (this post is from Sunday... even if I didn't manage to finish it until Monday)
Sorry for the long delay. It seems like every day I start to write and then something always comes up. It's been a pretty busy week.
On Easter Sunday someone stole money from my account, so I spent the early part of the week fixing that and making sure I got my money back. What a bloody hassle. Moral: don't ever use your debit card if you can manage it.
I had some school stuff to worry about, but luckily got all of it done. There is only two weeks left of school - man... I am super excited. There is a crapload left to do (3 practicals, a presentation, three assignments, peer assessment, not to mention getting to study!)... but knowing that the break is on the horizon may actually facilitate some work getting done.
I have gotten to the gym here and there, but I have to focus myself a bit more. I just did the recumbent bike on Saturday morning where I had one of my sweatiest workouts in a long time. I think I'll stick with the bike for a while - it feels more satisfying than the elliptical (even if the elliptical apparently burns more calories). And the plus side to this is that my knee shouldn't be affected too much with this exercise.
I went on a date on Thursday night with a guy I had been chatting with on the phone for two weeks. He's a really great guy, if not a little rough around the edges. I may someday have to make a clothing adjustment, but I suppose that's far in the future. He has been the only one I have gone on a first date with that I actually truly wanted a second date with - so this is really promising. We are hopefully going to the movies on Tuesday night to see Stop-Loss... if anyone has seen this, is it appropriate for a date? At the end of our date he kissed me on the cheek and gave me a huge hug, so it's kind of exciting to wonder when our first real kiss will occur. I really appreciated that he didn't come on to strongly considering the other men I have gone on dates with. So... I am excited to have a prospect!
Eating hasn't been great since that Thursday night because it's been a lot of social events since then... I went to a basketball game on Friday and then Fashionista visited me on Saturday night where we had dinner and then went out for drinks. Sunday we went out for breakfast with her boyfriend and his friends. My dad came over later in the day where he attempted to fix my washing machine which has been broken since the end of January and ended up fixing nothing... but I did get a free meal out of it! Certainly didn't feel like much of a weekend.
Oh yeah... and my mom is selling my childhood home to move into a condo! Within a week she had put an offer in on a condo and put our house up on the market. I am a little sad, but also happy that she'll be somewhere smaller. She's been complaining about the upkeep of the full house for a very long time. But the problem is she needs it all cleaned up before Sunday (her first Open House)... I don't know how that will be possible - my mother is a pack rat. She still keeps magazines from 1978 because there are recipes in there... forgetting that, oh yeah, she doesn't even cook. Grr... anyways
I am off to school... ahem.. bed? haha... pretend like this was posted yesterday...
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
One Year and 27 Days: Money
Update: 207.6lbs (30 days before physical)
I had my free personal trainer evaluation at the gym this morning. It really didn't involve that much - just a fat percentage, weight scale, plank, gait-evaluation.
I am obviously overweight (what a shocker!), and seem to be almost 50% fat (43% to be exact) - mind you, these scales are based on being fully hydrated and I certainly wasn't, so the figure may be a little exaggerated (haha... or underestimated??). Anyways, I knew I wasn't exactly a figure of ideal health and it's obviously something I am working on.
He assessed my gait, which he said was good and straight. Interestingly, I just don't activate my hamstrings/gluts enough to balance out muscle use in the leg... and I need to make sure my shoulders are completely straight back (I tend to slouch... in fact, I am. right. now.). I am happy about the gait test because when I was really young I remember reading a book where this little boy watched a Native American man and a large white man walking. The Native American walked straight with his feet pointing ahead while the white man walked like a duck with his feet pointing outwards. Since that day I made a conscious effort to walk straight like a Native American... haha... I suppose it actually stuck.
My plank was also good he said. 45-50seconds is 'good' length to hold it and I managed 1 minute (and technically could have gone a little longer, but wouldn't want to impress him too much... haha, yeah right).
Anyways... of course I spent the rest of the meeting being shocked by how expensive this guy is and how often he'd ideally want to see me. No way I can afford this guy as a trainer. No way. So I'll have to have that awkward conversation in a week when he calls me up asking if I want him as a trainer and I have to simply say no. Is it just me or is 6000$ for 6 months expensive? Jeez... and haha... they do offer financing, but I am not getting myself into debt (and paying MORE with interest) just to have a trainer.
So anyways... that's the story morning glory. I am enjoying being at the gym again, I think it's the only reason why I was able to bounce back from the Easter feast this weekend. I hope everyone enjoyed their long weekends!
I had my free personal trainer evaluation at the gym this morning. It really didn't involve that much - just a fat percentage, weight scale, plank, gait-evaluation.
I am obviously overweight (what a shocker!), and seem to be almost 50% fat (43% to be exact) - mind you, these scales are based on being fully hydrated and I certainly wasn't, so the figure may be a little exaggerated (haha... or underestimated??). Anyways, I knew I wasn't exactly a figure of ideal health and it's obviously something I am working on.
He assessed my gait, which he said was good and straight. Interestingly, I just don't activate my hamstrings/gluts enough to balance out muscle use in the leg... and I need to make sure my shoulders are completely straight back (I tend to slouch... in fact, I am. right. now.). I am happy about the gait test because when I was really young I remember reading a book where this little boy watched a Native American man and a large white man walking. The Native American walked straight with his feet pointing ahead while the white man walked like a duck with his feet pointing outwards. Since that day I made a conscious effort to walk straight like a Native American... haha... I suppose it actually stuck.
My plank was also good he said. 45-50seconds is 'good' length to hold it and I managed 1 minute (and technically could have gone a little longer, but wouldn't want to impress him too much... haha, yeah right).
Anyways... of course I spent the rest of the meeting being shocked by how expensive this guy is and how often he'd ideally want to see me. No way I can afford this guy as a trainer. No way. So I'll have to have that awkward conversation in a week when he calls me up asking if I want him as a trainer and I have to simply say no. Is it just me or is 6000$ for 6 months expensive? Jeez... and haha... they do offer financing, but I am not getting myself into debt (and paying MORE with interest) just to have a trainer.
So anyways... that's the story morning glory. I am enjoying being at the gym again, I think it's the only reason why I was able to bounce back from the Easter feast this weekend. I hope everyone enjoyed their long weekends!
Friday, March 21, 2008
One Year and 23 Days: Under the Bridge
Update: 208.8lbs
Alright, so not great news from the doctor - my bloody blood pressure is up again, super super high. It's a good thing I am back on the exercise bandwagon, because that is definitely a sign that I was off of it for a long time. My left knee is feeling really good right now (hopefully I don't jinx it), but my right one feels a little weird. I am just going to have to make sure I stretch quite a bit and try my hardest to keep my legs/feet in-line when doing anything from now on. I may even have to find a running specialist place to get my gait looked at to see if I need some fancy hydrolic shoes to keep me all balanced out. I have a feeling those babies would be very stylish.
The doctor didn't even look at the bloody knee because 'one issue per visit please' - except I know for sure that other people don't follow that rule because the appointments were almost an hour late! Freaking hell... not a good start. Anyways... I have a physical scheduled in a month's time where I'll have to get the gambit done - pap (ekk), breast exam (man it sucks being a woman sometimes), weight/height, BP, hopefully a blood test. So that means I have a month (and three days to be exact) to get myself back into the swing of things, my blood pressure back to my normal high-normal and hopefully put a little dent into my weight.
Appointment: April 24th
34 days to get in shape.
I thought that today my gym might not be open, but indeed they are - only 10-2pm, so I must get going!
Have a great Easter ladies! Maybe I'll actually comment, instead of just lurk in the corner!
Alright, so not great news from the doctor - my bloody blood pressure is up again, super super high. It's a good thing I am back on the exercise bandwagon, because that is definitely a sign that I was off of it for a long time. My left knee is feeling really good right now (hopefully I don't jinx it), but my right one feels a little weird. I am just going to have to make sure I stretch quite a bit and try my hardest to keep my legs/feet in-line when doing anything from now on. I may even have to find a running specialist place to get my gait looked at to see if I need some fancy hydrolic shoes to keep me all balanced out. I have a feeling those babies would be very stylish.
The doctor didn't even look at the bloody knee because 'one issue per visit please' - except I know for sure that other people don't follow that rule because the appointments were almost an hour late! Freaking hell... not a good start. Anyways... I have a physical scheduled in a month's time where I'll have to get the gambit done - pap (ekk), breast exam (man it sucks being a woman sometimes), weight/height, BP, hopefully a blood test. So that means I have a month (and three days to be exact) to get myself back into the swing of things, my blood pressure back to my normal high-normal and hopefully put a little dent into my weight.
Appointment: April 24th
34 days to get in shape.
I thought that today my gym might not be open, but indeed they are - only 10-2pm, so I must get going!
Have a great Easter ladies! Maybe I'll actually comment, instead of just lurk in the corner!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
One Year and 22 Days: Gotta Move On
Update: didn't weigh myself today...
Well.. I did something drastic yesterday... I got a membership to GoodLife Fitness (for the second time ever) - I figure this time I might actually use it because it's not a two-bus ride to get there, in fact it's just down the street. My motivation at using the school gym is waning and it's getting annoying having to take my backpack and my gym bag with me on crowded subways and then having to bring them home almost immediately because I stink the damn clothes up with sweat. And considering school ends in about a month, I think this is a good time to switch over to something closer.
I looked at a fancier gym too, but the expense was just way too much ($100/month). I have to admit I did consider it for a while with their steam, sauna and whirlpool rooms and the fact that it wasn't packed in there... but alas, I went for the cheaper one - way less 'elitist' in there anyway. And the free massage chairs don't hurt.
After signing up I didn't really have enough time to go home and come back and still have time to exercise, so I decided I would go bright and early before class. So today, that is exactly what I did (finally! actually doing something I say I'll do). It was great... elliptical for about 30minutes, recumbent bike for about 20minutes and then free weights and a couple weight machines. It felt good to be back. I am seriously going to make use of it because I can't afford not to.
I only had one class today, so I decided I would just stay home. School is bumming me out lately, I stayed home yesterday too (only one class) and rearranged my bedroom and have begun to actually make this condo feel more like home - finally things are coming together. It's funny how just putting up a couple of pictures on the wall can do that. Feels good.
Later on I have my first appointment with the doctor - it's my goal to ask him about my knee so we can get an official diagnosis and perhaps some physical therapy if it warrants it. I'm excited! Wish me luck that he's neither creepy nor incompetent...
Alright, have a great day...
Well.. I did something drastic yesterday... I got a membership to GoodLife Fitness (for the second time ever) - I figure this time I might actually use it because it's not a two-bus ride to get there, in fact it's just down the street. My motivation at using the school gym is waning and it's getting annoying having to take my backpack and my gym bag with me on crowded subways and then having to bring them home almost immediately because I stink the damn clothes up with sweat. And considering school ends in about a month, I think this is a good time to switch over to something closer.
I looked at a fancier gym too, but the expense was just way too much ($100/month). I have to admit I did consider it for a while with their steam, sauna and whirlpool rooms and the fact that it wasn't packed in there... but alas, I went for the cheaper one - way less 'elitist' in there anyway. And the free massage chairs don't hurt.
After signing up I didn't really have enough time to go home and come back and still have time to exercise, so I decided I would go bright and early before class. So today, that is exactly what I did (finally! actually doing something I say I'll do). It was great... elliptical for about 30minutes, recumbent bike for about 20minutes and then free weights and a couple weight machines. It felt good to be back. I am seriously going to make use of it because I can't afford not to.
I only had one class today, so I decided I would just stay home. School is bumming me out lately, I stayed home yesterday too (only one class) and rearranged my bedroom and have begun to actually make this condo feel more like home - finally things are coming together. It's funny how just putting up a couple of pictures on the wall can do that. Feels good.
Later on I have my first appointment with the doctor - it's my goal to ask him about my knee so we can get an official diagnosis and perhaps some physical therapy if it warrants it. I'm excited! Wish me luck that he's neither creepy nor incompetent...
Alright, have a great day...
Monday, March 17, 2008
One Year and 19 Days: Saint Simon
Update: 208.8lbs, 8.8lbs left to go...
Finally I have had a completely, thoroughly good day. Well.. except the non-exercising, but we won't talk about that. :)
I went to Starbucks in the morning to study - I just needed to get out of my place for a while. And while I could have ordered some fancy drink with tons of whipped cream on it, it was my intention to actually order a huge green tea, and thank god that is exactly what I did. I sat there for three hours and studied and drank the darn green tea (x2). I always feel healthy while drinking green tea I feel like it renews me to healthy eating. I don't necessarily think this is true, but I feel different when I am drinking it, like my body certainly approaches it differently than with plain water. And really you can't go wrong with it (except the taste, which leaves something to be desired) - it naturally has metabolism-increasing ingredients, but it's also super hot (also a metabolism stimulant, from what I have read).
Tonight many of my classmates are going out for St. Patty's Day - so tomorrow may not show the best numbers, but at least I promise to be good food wise... no point in ruining this weight with food (beer is another story... I have to drink some green beer on St. Patty's day... haha, even if I'm not Irish).
Finally I have had a completely, thoroughly good day. Well.. except the non-exercising, but we won't talk about that. :)
I went to Starbucks in the morning to study - I just needed to get out of my place for a while. And while I could have ordered some fancy drink with tons of whipped cream on it, it was my intention to actually order a huge green tea, and thank god that is exactly what I did. I sat there for three hours and studied and drank the darn green tea (x2). I always feel healthy while drinking green tea I feel like it renews me to healthy eating. I don't necessarily think this is true, but I feel different when I am drinking it, like my body certainly approaches it differently than with plain water. And really you can't go wrong with it (except the taste, which leaves something to be desired) - it naturally has metabolism-increasing ingredients, but it's also super hot (also a metabolism stimulant, from what I have read).
Tonight many of my classmates are going out for St. Patty's Day - so tomorrow may not show the best numbers, but at least I promise to be good food wise... no point in ruining this weight with food (beer is another story... I have to drink some green beer on St. Patty's day... haha, even if I'm not Irish).
Sunday, March 16, 2008
One Year and 18 Days: Come and Find Me
Update: 210.4lbs
I think I have finally found what my knee problem is.... Iliotibial Band Syndrome. It's caused by increasing your mileage/speed too quickly while running, not warming up/cooling down properly among others. I am 99% sure this is it because I did in fact increase mileage way too quickly and my warm-up usually just involves walking 5 minutes before hand... this is obviously not enough. I will actually have to stretch now, especially my iliotibial tract (runs on the outside of the thigh from hip to knee). The pain people described is exactly what it feels like - only hurts when the knee is bent, and you put weight/pressure on it - so stair walking is difficult. It's definitely starting to get better now, and that seems all you can do with it is wait it out (2-4 weeks). Sounds about right... Damn, I love self-diagnosing... I'll still talk to the doctor about it on Thursday - my first meeting with my (hopefully - crossing fingers) new family doctor.
Can't wait to get back on the treadmill/elliptical this week, I feel like such a slug and I think it's contributing to the overeating. When I exercise I feel good and then want to feed myself well... so let's hope that begins the journey back on the wagon.
Alright.. I have to go study some respiratory physiology. Have a great Sunday!
I think I have finally found what my knee problem is.... Iliotibial Band Syndrome. It's caused by increasing your mileage/speed too quickly while running, not warming up/cooling down properly among others. I am 99% sure this is it because I did in fact increase mileage way too quickly and my warm-up usually just involves walking 5 minutes before hand... this is obviously not enough. I will actually have to stretch now, especially my iliotibial tract (runs on the outside of the thigh from hip to knee). The pain people described is exactly what it feels like - only hurts when the knee is bent, and you put weight/pressure on it - so stair walking is difficult. It's definitely starting to get better now, and that seems all you can do with it is wait it out (2-4 weeks). Sounds about right... Damn, I love self-diagnosing... I'll still talk to the doctor about it on Thursday - my first meeting with my (hopefully - crossing fingers) new family doctor.
Can't wait to get back on the treadmill/elliptical this week, I feel like such a slug and I think it's contributing to the overeating. When I exercise I feel good and then want to feed myself well... so let's hope that begins the journey back on the wagon.
Alright.. I have to go study some respiratory physiology. Have a great Sunday!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
One Year and 15 Days: Photobooth
Update: around 211lbs, 11lbs to go.
Alright, I have been lax in posting for a couple of reasons... the wedding and then about 3 assignments, a practical (which I really didn't want to get zero on) and a midterm. It is now all over. Thank God!
The wedding was alright... we had to go up a night early (made me miss singing karaoke with friends) because the weather was horrible! I think over the weekend we got about 40cm of snow!! Crazy time to wear a knee-length dress Briana... but to heck with it, I didn't get it all tailored for nothing. And I think it looked really great, I certainly felt really great in it which is all that mattered. It was really nice to get away, far away, for the weekend. I had my own (really large) room and I enjoyed a little time to myself. I tried to post while I was there but for some reason I could neither log on to msn messenger, nor to blogger - it was quite annoying. Food was completely haphazard for the weekend because I had to eat out the entire time, but it's all over now, so it's alright. Not great, but alright. It was a little awkward of a situation because we (my sister and I) aren't close to the couple and don't know any of their friends, but we got through it just fine. I have to admit that it made me kind of wish that some of my friends would get married (despite us being too young and/or not having significant others) - I love hearing the speeches from their loved ones and just being a part of someone's history. Sigh...
I haven't been able to make it to the gym this week despite planning to each and every day. Something comes up like working on an assignment with a partner, or the time just flies by and I actually forget. Today I didn't have a real excuse, I was just tired after staying up late to study for today's midterm. I feel a tiny bit guilty, but I really am tired.
I am really excited because tomorrow I have a hair appointment! Yay! I haven't cut my hair in ages and although I am just getting a trim, it will feel renewing to have the dead ends cut off and to have a 'style' once again.
Alright.. I suppose I am off to bed (early for once this week). Have a great Friday (yay!)!
Alright, I have been lax in posting for a couple of reasons... the wedding and then about 3 assignments, a practical (which I really didn't want to get zero on) and a midterm. It is now all over. Thank God!
The wedding was alright... we had to go up a night early (made me miss singing karaoke with friends) because the weather was horrible! I think over the weekend we got about 40cm of snow!! Crazy time to wear a knee-length dress Briana... but to heck with it, I didn't get it all tailored for nothing. And I think it looked really great, I certainly felt really great in it which is all that mattered. It was really nice to get away, far away, for the weekend. I had my own (really large) room and I enjoyed a little time to myself. I tried to post while I was there but for some reason I could neither log on to msn messenger, nor to blogger - it was quite annoying. Food was completely haphazard for the weekend because I had to eat out the entire time, but it's all over now, so it's alright. Not great, but alright. It was a little awkward of a situation because we (my sister and I) aren't close to the couple and don't know any of their friends, but we got through it just fine. I have to admit that it made me kind of wish that some of my friends would get married (despite us being too young and/or not having significant others) - I love hearing the speeches from their loved ones and just being a part of someone's history. Sigh...
I haven't been able to make it to the gym this week despite planning to each and every day. Something comes up like working on an assignment with a partner, or the time just flies by and I actually forget. Today I didn't have a real excuse, I was just tired after staying up late to study for today's midterm. I feel a tiny bit guilty, but I really am tired.
I am really excited because tomorrow I have a hair appointment! Yay! I haven't cut my hair in ages and although I am just getting a trim, it will feel renewing to have the dead ends cut off and to have a 'style' once again.
Alright.. I suppose I am off to bed (early for once this week). Have a great Friday (yay!)!
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
One Year and 7 Days: Round the Bend
Update: 211.2lbs
The weight goes down slowly, which I am surprisingly okay with. I've been eating a higher amount of calories lately (1700) which the daily plate thinks I can live on and still manage to lose two pounds a week. I am willing to test this theory out for a while because I am enjoying eating. The popcorn especially... I honestly don't know why I haven't home-made it before. I even bought some corn oil today to try out (I was using vegetable oil before, which gave it a slightly unique flavour). And plus TOM is around this week... so I am likely retaining a little bit anyway.
I have been cooking a little more lately, baked chicken fingers last night, sweet potatoes - slowly but surely I'll get back to old habits. I will make my first (ever!) pot roast on Friday or Sunday night and I am moderately excited about that. It will be quite the accomplishment. I also bought a ton of vegetables and actually cut up some of them so I will actually eat them!
Saturday is the wedding and my New Year's dress from a million months ago is now tailored for me, and I just have to figure out which shoes and sweater I will wear with it... not to mention how to do hair and makeup. Man it's been a long time since I've been to a wedding. I am a little excited for it and hoping there are some friendly 20-somethings to talk to (heck.. and maybe dance with).
On Friday night some of my class is going to asian-style karaoke, where you have your own private room. I think that will be hilarious if some of us actually get up and sing. Hmm... with a couple of drinks I can be persuaded - the question is which songs?
The next week will be crazy with a midterm, practical, lots of projects, a presentation... blah... so I best get to bed so I may actually survive it all...
The weight goes down slowly, which I am surprisingly okay with. I've been eating a higher amount of calories lately (1700) which the daily plate thinks I can live on and still manage to lose two pounds a week. I am willing to test this theory out for a while because I am enjoying eating. The popcorn especially... I honestly don't know why I haven't home-made it before. I even bought some corn oil today to try out (I was using vegetable oil before, which gave it a slightly unique flavour). And plus TOM is around this week... so I am likely retaining a little bit anyway.
I have been cooking a little more lately, baked chicken fingers last night, sweet potatoes - slowly but surely I'll get back to old habits. I will make my first (ever!) pot roast on Friday or Sunday night and I am moderately excited about that. It will be quite the accomplishment. I also bought a ton of vegetables and actually cut up some of them so I will actually eat them!
Saturday is the wedding and my New Year's dress from a million months ago is now tailored for me, and I just have to figure out which shoes and sweater I will wear with it... not to mention how to do hair and makeup. Man it's been a long time since I've been to a wedding. I am a little excited for it and hoping there are some friendly 20-somethings to talk to (heck.. and maybe dance with).
On Friday night some of my class is going to asian-style karaoke, where you have your own private room. I think that will be hilarious if some of us actually get up and sing. Hmm... with a couple of drinks I can be persuaded - the question is which songs?
The next week will be crazy with a midterm, practical, lots of projects, a presentation... blah... so I best get to bed so I may actually survive it all...
Monday, March 3, 2008
One Year and 5 Days: Things That Scare Me
Update: 212.6lbs
Sometimes I really hate this 'adult' shit. I hate paying endless amount of bills, hate having to organize my life on my own and I hate having to deal with 'adult' matters... like my practical exam.
After hearing everyone's stories about their practical exam and how their evaluators were very lax, I decided that I needed to write a heartfelt email to my teacher expressing my very serious concern over the class, the practical and the future. I agonize over this stuff. As strong as I can be sometimes, confronting someone is my least favourite thing to do (especially an 'authority' figure - in quotes because she is only a couple years older than me, and has as many qualifications as I do, one degree). I told her how I was upset by the outcome and felt that I had little choice in the decisions I made... blah blah. It was super hard to write, and as of now I have no idea what the outcome will be. But I had to do it. I had to take the chance, I have nothing to lose.
So I am emotionally drained from the last week. I am tired and poor and feeling a little more than overwhelmed at everything. And it's not even like school is that difficult, it's just... I don't know how to describe it. I partly think it's just being in the winter doldrums. Bring on a new season please!
A couple of good things happened... 1) I think I found myself a family doctor. His practice is just down the street from my condo (like less than 5 minute walk), he's young-ish (only graduated in 98) and he's taking patients! I am really excited by this notion... I can get my knee fixed and I will have someone to go to for regular physicals as I should be. 2) I made homemade popcorn yesterday, and it was delish! Like corn kernels in a pot on the stove... I was very impressed with myself... despite the fact that it is super simple and I don't know why I didn't do before.
Weight stuff is going... I find myself overeating a little, but I am really trying to work on that. I will do a bit of exercising tomorrow and watch everything else.
Alright... g'night folks!
Sometimes I really hate this 'adult' shit. I hate paying endless amount of bills, hate having to organize my life on my own and I hate having to deal with 'adult' matters... like my practical exam.
After hearing everyone's stories about their practical exam and how their evaluators were very lax, I decided that I needed to write a heartfelt email to my teacher expressing my very serious concern over the class, the practical and the future. I agonize over this stuff. As strong as I can be sometimes, confronting someone is my least favourite thing to do (especially an 'authority' figure - in quotes because she is only a couple years older than me, and has as many qualifications as I do, one degree). I told her how I was upset by the outcome and felt that I had little choice in the decisions I made... blah blah. It was super hard to write, and as of now I have no idea what the outcome will be. But I had to do it. I had to take the chance, I have nothing to lose.
So I am emotionally drained from the last week. I am tired and poor and feeling a little more than overwhelmed at everything. And it's not even like school is that difficult, it's just... I don't know how to describe it. I partly think it's just being in the winter doldrums. Bring on a new season please!
A couple of good things happened... 1) I think I found myself a family doctor. His practice is just down the street from my condo (like less than 5 minute walk), he's young-ish (only graduated in 98) and he's taking patients! I am really excited by this notion... I can get my knee fixed and I will have someone to go to for regular physicals as I should be. 2) I made homemade popcorn yesterday, and it was delish! Like corn kernels in a pot on the stove... I was very impressed with myself... despite the fact that it is super simple and I don't know why I didn't do before.
Weight stuff is going... I find myself overeating a little, but I am really trying to work on that. I will do a bit of exercising tomorrow and watch everything else.
Alright... g'night folks!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
One year and 4 days: Love is a Battlefield
Update: 214lbs... back to daily weighing - and yes, a scary number
Sometimes I really hate my body and how when I overeat it gains 10lbs overnight. I have seen a lot of people's blogs where it goes up for them a pound when they eat too much. It's almost never been like that for me. I can usually expect over 5lb gain when I have overeaten the day before. That's a discouraging notion. Looking at the scale now, it seems daunting to get the bloody weight off, but I know part of it was from last night (and the two weeks previous) - but how much? And how much has been because I can't get my water each day? And of course... how much is because I just ate way too damn much?
I think I have to get back to weighing myself daily, just to get me back on track. For a little while it was fine not to look, but then when social things came about, it just didn't help not to have the accountability to myself.
These past two weeks have actually been the busiest - social calendar-wise - in a long time. I think it's time to stay at home for a little while and get back to cooking some meals and not relying on the restaurant to make me something healthy... because I think we all know that it's getting increasingly difficult. I went out for dinner with my ex-roomie because she was back from Halifax for reading week, and I ordered a salad, with chicken and peanuts - so I knew it wasn't going to be great, but I didn't think that it would rival the caloric intake of huge pasta dishes and fried food. Sometimes it's ridiculous to go back and check those things. It's definitely a little frustrating when you really just don't want to pay for a bland lettuce and grilled chicken meal, but you also want to try to eat healthy.
I also went to the movies twice this past week and managed not to get popcorn either time. Although I did have other snacks, the fact that I didn't get popcorn is huge for me... I usually go to the movies for the popcorn.
Also I went home to my dad's on Friday night and worked out both that night and Saturday morning on his treadmill. I did an hour on Friday night and a half hour Saturday morning. It felt great (minus the knee... which I am thinking about going to my sister-in-law, a chiropractor, for). I am really frustrated with the knee... I would be doing a lot more exercising if it wasn't for it. I have even been walking up stairs less because it hurts. Not having a family doctor is very very frustrating. I think it is time to find someone.
So I have been able to have little victories, despite losing the weight battle. Water has been better the last couple days, so I am hoping to keep that up this week. I am ready to have a normal week and do some damage to this bloody extra weight.
Sometimes I really hate my body and how when I overeat it gains 10lbs overnight. I have seen a lot of people's blogs where it goes up for them a pound when they eat too much. It's almost never been like that for me. I can usually expect over 5lb gain when I have overeaten the day before. That's a discouraging notion. Looking at the scale now, it seems daunting to get the bloody weight off, but I know part of it was from last night (and the two weeks previous) - but how much? And how much has been because I can't get my water each day? And of course... how much is because I just ate way too damn much?
I think I have to get back to weighing myself daily, just to get me back on track. For a little while it was fine not to look, but then when social things came about, it just didn't help not to have the accountability to myself.
These past two weeks have actually been the busiest - social calendar-wise - in a long time. I think it's time to stay at home for a little while and get back to cooking some meals and not relying on the restaurant to make me something healthy... because I think we all know that it's getting increasingly difficult. I went out for dinner with my ex-roomie because she was back from Halifax for reading week, and I ordered a salad, with chicken and peanuts - so I knew it wasn't going to be great, but I didn't think that it would rival the caloric intake of huge pasta dishes and fried food. Sometimes it's ridiculous to go back and check those things. It's definitely a little frustrating when you really just don't want to pay for a bland lettuce and grilled chicken meal, but you also want to try to eat healthy.
I also went to the movies twice this past week and managed not to get popcorn either time. Although I did have other snacks, the fact that I didn't get popcorn is huge for me... I usually go to the movies for the popcorn.
Also I went home to my dad's on Friday night and worked out both that night and Saturday morning on his treadmill. I did an hour on Friday night and a half hour Saturday morning. It felt great (minus the knee... which I am thinking about going to my sister-in-law, a chiropractor, for). I am really frustrated with the knee... I would be doing a lot more exercising if it wasn't for it. I have even been walking up stairs less because it hurts. Not having a family doctor is very very frustrating. I think it is time to find someone.
So I have been able to have little victories, despite losing the weight battle. Water has been better the last couple days, so I am hoping to keep that up this week. I am ready to have a normal week and do some damage to this bloody extra weight.
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