One Year and 41 Days: Breakaway

I have been thinking about posting for a long time, however because I have had little time to think about nutrition, let alone follow it, the blogging always seemed to get pushed aside. It was always on my mind though. And after a wonderful email I got from Melly (thank you!) I am back after a slightly-longer-than-necessary hiatus. And honestly I have not even glanced at the scale in probably two weeks.

I have actually been busy. I swear I haven't been just sitting on my ass all day stuffing my face with sweets (although, that may have happened once). I have been internally freaking out the past week about my two practicals that occurred yesterday and today. My entire semester was pretty much riding on them. One of them I didn't do so well in, but the other went perfectly, so all-in-all I think I'll be back to school next semester. To prepare for the practicals I have been staying late several nights at school practicing with our equipment as much as possible and as important as that is... man, it is utterly exhausting. I have been averaging 6 hours of sleep a night which is not nearly enough. So needless to say exercise has fallen aside and I really hate saying that when now I am paying for a membership. Although now that my stress-inducing practicals are over (the worst ones anyway), I am planning on taking a trip to the gym tomorrow morning. Only one practical, one presentation and one assignment left. Still counting down the days.

In other news... it's beautiful outside lately! After being couped up in school all day I got off a couple subway stops early just so I could walk part way home in the sunshine. Tougher than I thought considering it's partly uphill... but I needed to soak up the sunlight - winter was getting me down.

I have been cooking a little more lately... chili one day, honey pecan chicken another, tons of veggies are sitting in my fridge, but the past few days I have been ignoring them for the convenience foods. Staring at them everyday makes me feel guilty, so maybe I'll actually gather some up tomorrow for lunch/dinner. School can't really be my excuse anymore... (of course, I reserve the right to use it at opportune times).

I had an interesting experience on Sunday... My friend Emma invited me to a hair show where she was going to be a model for her long-time hairdresser. She told me that I could come with her, see the show and get my hair done for free... so thought why the heck not? (despite the fact that I have been growing my damn hair for ever) When I got there it was this huge deal! where tons of companies were set up with stages and demonstrating tables like Redken and Jessica Simpson's hair company, etc. It turned out that I was going to be a hair model and get my hair cut on stage (a small stage... nothing too scary). But, I had no idea. As a large girl I never even would have thought that things like that can happen. And really it wasn't that big of a deal, but the fact that the label 'model' was associated with me felt so juxtaposing. I couldn't help but wonder whether the hairdressers thought I was appropriate for it. Nonetheless, I got my hair cut... into a bob! Not exactly long anymore. I was a little upset about it, and wondered for a long time whether it was worth it, but it's only hair. If I want to grow it back... then I will... it will just take a long time (this is me being super reasonable). I will admit I love short hair, it's fun to play with, it's sassy (it's a little like Katie Holmes' hair...), but I still want to know what it feels like (and looks like) to have the long sexy hair that so many women have. So it was an interesting day where crowds would stop and watch as my hair was cut, some would take pictures and I would never know if I should look at them directly or avert my eyes - a very surreal experience that I probably will never do again. It wasn't horrible, but certainly wasn't emotionally fulfilling in any way (okay... but it is fun to call yourself a 'model' for a day - even if you don't feel you quite deserve the title).

Alright... I am off to get a little work done before bed. I hope to get back on the blogging bandwagon this week!