One Fine Day

Haha.... I had to Kathy... I had to use the title..

So I decided to join Kathy on her 'One Perfect Day' challenge, where for one day you had to do everything possible to make it a good day. And I think (for once) I have succeeded. I ate lots of vegetables, ate just within my calories - believe me it was difficult to do so - and drank most of my water (I'll finish it up before bed). I wasn't able to exercise, but considering I had an exam this morning and a very scary exam coming up, I don't really feel comfortable giving up 2 full consecutive hours to bike riding and weight lifting (at least not until this next exam is over, all the others I couldn't give to shits about). So anyways... it was great to finally feel hunger for the first time in a long time. Oh how I have missed you wayward daughter...

I have been avoiding wearing my smaller jeans the last few weeks because I know what will happen when I put them on, they'll be tight and uncomfortable and I didn't want to remind myself of what I was doing. But this morning for my exam I had to put them on, and yup... just as I thought. Uncomfortable. It was a little scary because I know that I have lost weight before and I have put back on that weight. I didn't want to admit that this is essentially what I am doing again if I don't stop myself now. I don't know what has happened the last little while, but my sheer frustration and also apathy for school (and other areas of life) has spilled over into the health aspect... or really, the eating aspect. I keep thinking that I deserve the foods that I am eating, or that it's a special occasion, so I'll stop when it's over. But the special occasions never stop... eventually another one arises. I can't let myself eat like every day is a special day, I have to get back to a normal, healthy, everyday sort of diet.

I managed today, so let's make it two days in a row with appropriate caloric intake, some water drinkage and maybe if a walk if I get tired of being indoors all day. I can do this... I can get back on track. One day at a time, right? That's all it takes...