One Year and 5 Days: Things That Scare Me

Update: 212.6lbs

Sometimes I really hate this 'adult' shit. I hate paying endless amount of bills, hate having to organize my life on my own and I hate having to deal with 'adult' matters... like my practical exam.

After hearing everyone's stories about their practical exam and how their evaluators were very lax, I decided that I needed to write a heartfelt email to my teacher expressing my very serious concern over the class, the practical and the future. I agonize over this stuff. As strong as I can be sometimes, confronting someone is my least favourite thing to do (especially an 'authority' figure - in quotes because she is only a couple years older than me, and has as many qualifications as I do, one degree). I told her how I was upset by the outcome and felt that I had little choice in the decisions I made... blah blah. It was super hard to write, and as of now I have no idea what the outcome will be. But I had to do it. I had to take the chance, I have nothing to lose.

So I am emotionally drained from the last week. I am tired and poor and feeling a little more than overwhelmed at everything. And it's not even like school is that difficult, it's just... I don't know how to describe it. I partly think it's just being in the winter doldrums. Bring on a new season please!

A couple of good things happened... 1) I think I found myself a family doctor. His practice is just down the street from my condo (like less than 5 minute walk), he's young-ish (only graduated in 98) and he's taking patients! I am really excited by this notion... I can get my knee fixed and I will have someone to go to for regular physicals as I should be. 2) I made homemade popcorn yesterday, and it was delish! Like corn kernels in a pot on the stove... I was very impressed with myself... despite the fact that it is super simple and I don't know why I didn't do before.

Weight stuff is going... I find myself overeating a little, but I am really trying to work on that. I will do a bit of exercising tomorrow and watch everything else.

Alright... g'night folks!