One year and 4 days: Love is a Battlefield

Update: 214lbs... back to daily weighing - and yes, a scary number

Sometimes I really hate my body and how when I overeat it gains 10lbs overnight. I have seen a lot of people's blogs where it goes up for them a pound when they eat too much. It's almost never been like that for me. I can usually expect over 5lb gain when I have overeaten the day before. That's a discouraging notion. Looking at the scale now, it seems daunting to get the bloody weight off, but I know part of it was from last night (and the two weeks previous) - but how much? And how much has been because I can't get my water each day? And of course... how much is because I just ate way too damn much?

I think I have to get back to weighing myself daily, just to get me back on track. For a little while it was fine not to look, but then when social things came about, it just didn't help not to have the accountability to myself.

These past two weeks have actually been the busiest - social calendar-wise - in a long time. I think it's time to stay at home for a little while and get back to cooking some meals and not relying on the restaurant to make me something healthy... because I think we all know that it's getting increasingly difficult. I went out for dinner with my ex-roomie because she was back from Halifax for reading week, and I ordered a salad, with chicken and peanuts - so I knew it wasn't going to be great, but I didn't think that it would rival the caloric intake of huge pasta dishes and fried food. Sometimes it's ridiculous to go back and check those things. It's definitely a little frustrating when you really just don't want to pay for a bland lettuce and grilled chicken meal, but you also want to try to eat healthy.

I also went to the movies twice this past week and managed not to get popcorn either time. Although I did have other snacks, the fact that I didn't get popcorn is huge for me... I usually go to the movies for the popcorn.

Also I went home to my dad's on Friday night and worked out both that night and Saturday morning on his treadmill. I did an hour on Friday night and a half hour Saturday morning. It felt great (minus the knee... which I am thinking about going to my sister-in-law, a chiropractor, for). I am really frustrated with the knee... I would be doing a lot more exercising if it wasn't for it. I have even been walking up stairs less because it hurts. Not having a family doctor is very very frustrating. I think it is time to find someone.

So I have been able to have little victories, despite losing the weight battle. Water has been better the last couple days, so I am hoping to keep that up this week. I am ready to have a normal week and do some damage to this bloody extra weight.