Day 364: On/Off

Update: still none... but the numbers are going down...

Well, I have to say Kathy that your comment was a pretty great kick to my ass. I didn't get to read it until after I came home from the day - but I did stop eating, and stayed within calories for the day. Thanks Kathy! I will be back to full speed tomorrow - exercise and all. No excuses.

I've had a really crappy (really really) and also a pretty decent day. It started off where I got 0% on a practical exam because of a stupid mistake. I felt so defeated - it was worth 20% of my final mark, but somehow my teacher still thinks I can pass.. we'll see. The whole class has been complaining that it's possible to get nothing despite successfully completing the skill. So I have to really put my ass in gear and pretty much get perfect on everything else the rest of the year to pass this freaking course. It was nice to hear so much support from the class at the ridiculousness of the marking scheme.

Another thing that made it better was that my friend Steve offered to make me breakfast during our break, so we went back to his apartment where he made me a moderately greasy breakfast of two sausages, a small omelette, toast and a hashbrown. It was good and comforting, and I really appreciated the gesture. And I still stayed within calories... (main point here)

The rest of the school day was pretty uneventful - surprisingly I managed not to cry or do anything too embarrassing despite being moderately upset about the morning.

I had been texting with a new boy from lavalife all day, so that perked my spirits. We decided to meet tonight, and I was really nervous about it. But it all went fine, he's cute, he's brown (he's the first brown man I've gone on a date with), he's successful and he is super flattering. He tells me how beautiful I am and is very touchy-feely, but besides a couple kisses, nothing crazy happened... lol... I might be seeing him again on Friday, but I'll have to see.

I don't think I ever mentioned that I went on a second date with Josh where we decided that we weren't going to date anymore. We will attempt the 'friends' thing - but I am not even sure I want him as a friend as he is the most self-absorbed man I have ever talked to (something I fully realized after the second date). It was such a load off to figure all that out with him.

Goal number one for tomorrow is just to get my bloody water in - it's been impossible lately... So that is the story morning glory.