Day 339: Change of Season

Update: 210.4lbs

Alright, I think I have decided to change some things around here. For at least the month of February I am no longer going to be weighing in each day, but rather weekly (I couldn't give it up totally like Krissie!). I want there to be a specific number I can point to each week instead of my tiny ups and downs each day. I want it to be a surprise - which means I think I might be sending my scale to the dungeon for the week (i.e. my locker). Weigh-ins will be on Fridays because they are the furthest away from the weekend I can get and it actually gives me a chance to lose some poundage. I also reduced my calories a little bit more. I was eating 1400-1500 and pushing more on some days, I have been getting permissive with what I eat and frankly a tiny bit lazy. So with just over 1200 Calories I really have to plan ahead, make good choices to get all my protein and fibre in. If it ends up not being enough, then I'll increase it, but I just want to spark a bit of weight loss for the next month if possible. And I may actually develop a sense of self separate from the bloody scale. I want to see how I feel this week before I see what the numbers have in store for me - if I feel great and fit and healthy and happy, that is all that matters.

At the end of the month I think I'll do a re-design of my blog. I have no idea what I'll do with it, what I'll add or subtract, but I think it's definitely time to update, add some before and after pics etc. I am actually quite excited about it, despite the fact I am completely at a loss of what to do. If you have any ideas... I am all ears!

All this change is making me excited to see some numbers fall away. I planned out my meals in advance this morning and did a really great job, managing to get almost 90grams of protein in, 35 grams of fibre in 1250calories. Of course plans always manage to change when I am most set in my schedule, so my friend from class is coming over after dinner to watch a movie and I think she is bringing snacks. I'll offer popcorn and some diet soda of my own just to try to keep the options to a minimum. And then another friend from class invited me out to go drinking tonight. I don't think I will go, but I haven't hung out with her outside of school yet and I really like her, so I may make the effort and just keep it to one drink. We'll see. At the moment I am feeling mightily lazy.

I went down to my gym this morning and decided to try something different. After warming up on the treadmill for 5 minutes, I decided I would run for as long as I could without looking at the timer, just the distance. Somehow I got it in my head that I would run a mile if I could possibly handle it. And handle it I did! When I turned the display back to the time, I had run for 11 minutes straight! I don't mean to sound glib about it, because it was bloody hard. Those last two minutes were killing me... all I wanted to do was reach for my bottle of water and pour it down my throat, but of course, I couldn't because then I would have to stop breathing out of my mouth... and then I would die. Sweat was coming down in droplets and frankly dropping into my eyeballs (not so pleasant). But god, was I proud after that. A whole minute past my goal of running for 10 minutes straight. Proves that you can really psyche yourself out of going as hard as possible when you are watching the clock. I added 4 more minutes of running throughout the 45 minute workout and hopped off. I was going to do weight lifting but someone took away their free weights that had been there the weeks before. My dad told me to just buy some and take them down with me, which is what I will do eventually. I just did some crunches on the exercise ball and then did some girly push-ups. Finally I am actually feeling like I am making progress in that arena; I can do about 6 or 7 with pretty decent form (I am guessing). As soon as I can hit 10 relatively easily, I am going to hop on over to the man-style pushups (I will conquer them!).

I am excited for Kathy's tofu recipes this month because I conveniently bought a loaf? block? brick? of tofu on Monday and have been staring at it wondering what fun? things I could do with it. If I have to, I'll resort to using it in a stir-fry, but I would much prefer to have it in some fantastic Kathy-made recipe...

Well... let's see what this week has in store! (I am seriously hoping that scale-withdrawal doesn't involve the urge to make trips to the fridge!)