Day 337: The Reason Why

Update: 210.6lbs

I think you all can guess that my hope for this morning was that it was all a dream and Mr. Scale would say 208lbs and all would be well. Of course, it didn't quite work out that way, but at least all that 'extra weight' I put on seems to be slowly fading. Last night, it definitely took most of my willpower not to stuff my face into the frozen batch of cookie dough and eat myself out of my cupboards - you know, just to make the gain a 'real one'. I managed to hold back for the most part (okay, I did have a couple spoonfuls of the dough, but I counted it!). I drank a crapload of water and even a couple mugs of green tea with the hope of speeding up my metabolism, however minutely.

I got to the gym, although circumstances of the day dictated that I didn't have enough time to do weights as well, but I definitely got in my 30 minutes of elliptical training and then I ran on the treadmill for 5 minutes (I am determined to build up my endurance and run for 10 minutes straight again!). It was an okay workout, but bittersweet - I was frustrated that I couldn't do weights, but I also didn't want to waste my time on something that wasn't going to help. It was a frustrating day of thinking about food and exercise almost constantly. I think it was just one of those days.

And look... the biggest loser contestants had a tough week too! (At least the black team did, and yes, technically this probably occurred 6 months ago, but I'll still take it as evidence).

I have lots of time to workout today, so I'll make sure I get a good workout in, I have to study for a couple of midterms coming up and then later on today I am playing intramural basketball with people from my class. It should be a busy day, where I don't have much time to dwell on the weight... I hope.

I don't like worrying about it, and intellectually I know the number on the scale isn't an indicator for the amount of work we've all put into it, but it's hard not to have an objective measure of success, even if it doesn't tell me what I want to hear. As frustrating as it is, I WAS up 3lbs... and I only knew to change something once I had received that feedback. Although, I definitely think it's time to wean myself from the scale a bit. I weigh myself way too often (I jump on and off the scale many, many times during the day)... once a day (in the morning) is my goal for the rest of the week.

Have a good day ladies! I wish you some non-scale success today...